Hilang..

Just notice that I lost something valuable this morning..been searching them high and low..and at this point of time, am telling myself that I got to admit I might lost them forever..sedih..memang sedih sebab utamanya diri sendiri selalu lalai..but then I quickly realise that..all those didn't belong to me..sume ini milik Allah..terus berkata-kata dalam hati.."Ya Allah..andai ini masih lagi rezekiku, pulangkan semula padaku..andai tidak Ya Allah, kau redhakan lah hati aku.. aku rela kehilangan sume itu ya Allah daripada aku hilang kasih dan sayang darimu ya Allah.."

 Allah ingin menegur saya..atas kelalaian saya..atau sebenarnya lebih kepada mengajar saya..apa yang saya tak sedar selama ni bila mana saya terbaca status FB Yasmin Mogahed sejurus selepas saya berdoa dalam hati tadi..

"There is nothing wrong with making duaa for 'worldly' things as long as they are halal. The problem is when we confuse the tool (everything created) and the goal (Allah). Even when we get or use 'worldly' things, their ultimate intended purpose is to aid us in our journey to our End: Allah. Instead we use Allah to aid us in our journey to worldly things."

"As soon as we realize this Truth, we start seeing our lives, and the whole world completely differently:  We try to use God like a ‘genie in a bottle’. We make a wish, and when it doesn’t come true, we throw away the bottle. But Allah isn’t a tool we use to get to Dunya. Dunya is a tool we use to get to Allah."

Astaghfirullahalazimm..istighfar panjang saya..termenung sekejap..memang inilah silap saya dan syukur..Allah tunjukkan dan tegur saya..nikmat mana satukah yang harus hambaMu di dustakan Ya Allah!